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# mR tAn's 28tH bDaE#

2005-04-11T23:54:00.000-07:00

todae i didn't noe that it's mr tan's bdae lehx..he this yr turning 28years old le... if i've known..i would at least rite a bdae card to him lorx.. me..todae nothing happen lahx.,. onli heard tt alvin wanna change his prefect dismissal recess duty to level4 petrol... same as mine... i doin the duty wifz wei neng now mahx.. he so cute like teddy bear like tt..lolx..hahax.. i didn't mean to insult him de...hahax..
ar ya..i really got nothing to rite.. next time i got things den rite larx.. hahax..
Hapi Bdae Mr Tan.. god bless yew..

SYF

2005-04-05T23:41:00.000-07:00

wahx.. todae went to support my school haising choir... they sang so well fer the 'SALMO150' song lorx.. i'm so impressed lehx! this yr our school sing fer the SYF is so so damn good lorx.. how i wish i could be one of them on the stage singing the SYF songs.. when our school perform finished le..ms yeap cried.. she told us that she was so touched coz our school sang very well and hab improved very well compared to 2003's SYF ... i tot she cried is coz she was disappointed wifz us but hahax.. it wasn't....after we perform and listen to a few school's singing, we went back to school liaox.. but ms yeap still at the singapore conference hall waiting fer the results to be out at 6plus pm...

when i call sherlyn to noe the results, haiz, our choir got silver fer SYF.. sob sob.. sherlyn told me tt everyone was in the music room waiting fer the results nervously..den shi yong recieved one call frm ms yeap.. we got a gold.. there was a sudden silence in the music room... when shi yong put down the call, almost everyone cried..even kenneth cried lehx... haiz.. me now so so sad coz of the choir SYF thingy..i tot we would get a gold lorx..but unexpectedly,... we got a silver... sob sob...=(

2005-04-04T03:08:00.000-07:00

sianz.. nowadaes nth much happen to me... now me got no feelings fer alvin lo.. is it a gd thing or a bad thing? maybe it's a gd thing bahx... =) now me and him are juz good godbrother and sis onli.. so hapi... so heng tt he didn't quit prefectorial board... but sad is that he quit choir in january le.. he now in archery... hope he's doin fine there and is able to cope wifz the stress there..=)

2005-03-27T23:09:00.000-08:00

haiz.. todae duno y i feel so glumy.. maybe coz of my test results.. i'm not satisfied wif my results.. haiz.. i dun feel like toking abt tt.. nvm..change the subject.. wat to tok lehx?
oh ya.. my school choir going fer SYF this tuesdae! i wish them all the best to get a Gold! jia you haisingers! lolx.. =)

2005-03-25T20:20:00.000-08:00

haiz.. todae i feel completely sian.. i whole dae at home lehx.. nth to do lorx.. wanna go out oso cannot, my parents dun allow me de..
haiz, i felt so bad ignoring alvin. i can feel tt now we two are like miles and miles apart.. wif a river between..y can't we be juz like last time good godbrother and godsister? haiz.. wat shuld i do? i dun wanna lose such a gd fren like him..
btw.. i still wanna noe the reason y alvin wanna break up wifz me.. he haven't told me lehx.. i wanna noe the reason although i treat him as my godbrother onli now.. i really wanna noe the reason...

2005-03-24T20:18:00.000-08:00

haiz.. u noe wat? i think i can get over alvin le.. i dun like him lo.. but i felt bad ignoring him nowadaes..sorry alvin.. i dun wan to but my mind told me to do so.. haiz..i duno wat to do or am i doin the right thing? i oso ignored his fren, andy and james. they kept calling me biscuit wheneva they sees me.. i dun noe if i'm doin the right thing..
oh yea! eudora [my jie] came back frm her sec3 camp lo..so hapi.. lolx.. i hope she enjoyed herself during her camp.. =)
tmr it's good fridae! it's the dae tt Jesus died on the cross fer us.. i lurve him so much.. thank u Lord..muackx! i'll never forget this very dae Lord..

2005-03-18T21:31:00.000-08:00

i duno why when ever i look at Alvin, the feeling tat i had for him had gone. i juz dun hab the feeling i hab last time when i look or met him now. instead, sometimes i dun hab any feeling, or sometimes my heart juz hurts, or sad or even feeling of ignoring him when i see him now.

After so many things had happened to me, i suddenly felt like juz wanna be single during my secondary school life. My feelings now are so confused. i dunno wat i am supposed to do or how i am feeling. My feelings now are really messy juz like a mixture. i oso dunno how i feel for alvin. i am totally confused now! My head and thoughts are like spinning round and round many times.

{thinking}

2005-03-18T21:25:00.000-08:00

fAtE???

2005-03-17T18:47:00.000-08:00

haiz, i duno y nowadaes i dun hab feelings fer alvin le.. is it that i dun like him already? i'm so confused now.

But is it that me and alvin got fate that Lord has planned for me and him? Everytime when i prayed that i'll not meet him anywhere i go, i'll still eventually met him de.

For example:

On tuesdae, 15 March 2005, i prayed to God that i'll not meet alvin anywhere i go but in the end, when i meeting jasmine at the bus stop near the pasir ris park [we going to school together wat], i met alvin at the playground. the swing there. Den on the very same dae, me and Wendy they ol going to white sands to eat lunch tt time got walk pass the pasir ris park and we met alvin again. i ignored alvin and look else where.

Den yesterdae [Wednesdae, 16 March 2005], in the evening i went to the park to jog at abt 5.45pm. i jog halfway and i juz look at the people under the MRT tracks. Guess What? AGAIN, i met alvin. He wasnt looking at my direction at first but in the end, he juz suddenly look at my direction, i ignored him and continue to jog without even waving hi to him.

Den todae [Thursdae, 17 March 2005] got the prefects, peer support leader and the sports leader combine camp. Again, many many times i met alvin when i think i do not want to.

Haiz, Lord, is it that me and alvin got fate or wat? is it that You got plans for the two of us? Why i kept meeting him when i dun wan to? why? Why? WHY?

i nid help Lord. Please help me.......

tOnG hUa -fAiRy taLe-

2005-03-16T12:59:00.000-08:00

This is a song that i've translated frm a chinese song. i find it meaningful so i decided to rite them here.

(1)
Forgotten 4 how long
i haben't heard frm u
telling me ur favourite love story.
I thought for very long
and i began to panic.
Did i do anything wrong?

(2)
You cried and told me that,
" Everything in the fairy tale is not true,
coz it's impossible for me to be ur prince."
Perhaps u'll not understand that
ever since you said u love me,
the stars in my sky lit up!

(3)
At first in the fairy tale i became
ur angel whom u loved and
i open my arms which transform into wings to protect you.
You muz believe that we'll juz be like in the fairy tale's
blessed and hapi ending.

-Repeat (2) + (3)-
-Repeat (3)-

(4)
Everything is our ending.

2005-03-14T15:22:00.000-08:00

###Come Wat May###

(1)

Never noe i could feel like this,

like i've neva seen the sky b4.

Want to find which inside your case.

Everydae i liurve u more and more.

Listen to my heart, can u hear it saes

telling me to gif u everything.

Seasons may change,

winter to spring.

But i lurve u,until the end of time.

[[chorus~

Come wat may,come wat may.

I'll lurve you until my dying day.

(2)

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place,

(3)

suddenly the moon seems such a perfect grace,

suddenly my life doesn't seems such a waste,

it all revolves surrounding,

and there's no mountain to our heart,

now will it be too wide?

Sing out the songs and i'll be there by ur side.

Storm claps may gather,

and stars may coming.

But i lurve u

until the end of time.

[[chorus~ + (2)

Repeat [[chorus~